Filed under: adventuring, being mama, getting outside, learning, playing with photos
the difficulty is…in this moment…the sacred hour in the day when the busy bean rests…where do i plant my feet “now” in order to simply “be”.
jeremiah is conscientious of this being time for mama to have space and he is taking his own…so it is quiet.
and presently being here now is very loaded for me you see.
i did a bit of yoga…but was impatient with the process and could not turn the to-do list off…as many of those things indeed are things that are challenging to do when the bean is up in action…and having to seize the business day hours….with knowing that my energy level at night is minimal (if at all) these days…
i want to write, i want to create, i want to read, i want to have quiet…un-interupted.
and yes there are ways to integrate all of these desires throughout my day, with kiddos under foot and maybe there is peace to be found in this season in that, as that is where i most often am. and this shifting has reminded me that there is an amazing amount of beauty found in that…being present to what is vs. spending energy wishing for a shift of circumstance.
and there is wisdom to be found in looking at “the interruption”…something to hear in it.
oh what to do with this binding notion that i must be effective, efficient, patient, conscientious, flexible, as well as accomplished (all in measurable, simultaneous,and quantifiable ways) to be proven valuable…or rather to prove to myself that i have value?
what a harsh, unforgiving boss i am to myself at times.
so here i am. now. trying to minimize my expectations of outcome…letting go of this notion that it can somehow be controlled.
here are some photos of our snow shoe outing earlier today…at the abandoned “green house” in the woods that we often venture to explore.
Filed under: creating, playing with photos, self-portraiture experiment, student being
playing with this notion of
balance
trees continue to be powerful metaphors
teachers
who know the vitality of rootedness
and what are roots
but that which allows the tapping into life
into that which sustains
into the grace that lies beneath
allowing branches to strengthen
to endure the cold of winters
to bloom graciously in the springs
to flourish in the radiant summers
to surrender in the falls
of life
dynamic
is this being rooted
and it does not seem to have a destination
but rather seasons
there is something peacefully powerful about this season…with the brilliant external changing of the leaves. i have also found such power in consciously tapping into the reality of seasons in my own life, allowing the trees to inform the unfolding.
trees have always been great metaphors along my way…great teachers. i remember years ago sitting beneath the changing trees and gleaning such wisdom being in their midst in that moment…they did not seem to have to work hard to adjust to that season of rapid change…
there is ”work” throughout the changes of season: as whole systems work together and at times even appear to manifest “conflict”… but there is also a “rooted” trust in the unfolding and good order of the universe…some do cling to their leaves longer than others but seemingly maintain a posture of trust…as if the species seeks to survive, trust seems mandatory…there seems little option but to be present to what is.
Filed under: adventuring, playing with photos, self-portraiture experiment, thirty days of thanksgiving
thankful that “it’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone
“…
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.”
—Marianne Williamson
thankful for looking at things from a new angle…
and for how a shift in perspective can suddenly allow the ”mundane” to inspire.
Filed under: playing with photos, self-portraiture experiment, thirty days of thanksgiving, why not give it a try, yoga
giving thanks today for yesterday…
life has been a bit of a juggling act lately, or i guess in general, but it feels more recently the number of balls have increased…
i was able to spend some time on my yoga mat yesterday, which is helpful for creating space, and sometimes de-clutters a bit.
i am reminded.
to take
it easy
on me
once and awhile.
ps: i have discovered picnik.com and have had SO much fun playing with photos…i am generally not a neon fan, but i fiddled with this one effect for a long time and somehow settled on this combo…hmmm i think it was partly being amazed at seeing myself so dark skinned…
so i just decided to go with it…seriously it is so fun to experiment with, and very user friendly…check it out
Filed under: adventuring, getting outside, playing with photos, thirty days of thanksgiving
thankful for being reminded to give thanks…
as this thanksgiving venture has reminded me to do…
and today i am thankful for these beautiful last days of summer…
and that we have been able to play in the water a bunch…
